In my past life as a former Madam I never realized how much pain I was inflicting on the women who worked for me until I stepped away and gave my life to Christ. At the time of being a Madam I believed that to some degree that I was keeping the women in a safer environment than the streets and not being physically beaten by their pimps. Yet I have hurt them both physically and emotionally and to this end, I am so sorry.
What many of you may not know is that while I was a Madam, I was being pimped. I had someone that I had to answer to which pushed me to be harder on the women. I make no excuse for this it was simply just the reality. I too was being exploited as a Madam. As a former exploited woman, I feel the pain and after effects of being exploited and I am so sorry to the core of my being for the pain I have caused to many as a Madam.
I don’t know how many women I have hurt in the past but I want to ask their forgiveness and seek full reconciliation for the pain I have caused by being a former exploiter. Although I have reconciled with many, this is a journey that I have been on for some time now. My heart’s desire to have full reconciliation.
To the individuals whom my past life being a Madam have affected in a negative way I am coming before you with humility and I am asking for your forgiveness and reconciliation.
There needs to be a reconciliation process and healing for the parties involved, myself included. As of a woman of faith I am seeking godly counsel from scripture that I am applying to my own life.
Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24 leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift. Matthew 5:23
I am truly remorseful of my harmful actions in the past and have now taken a stand for the oppressed as I too am on my journey of healing. I pray for the day when many more madams and pimps will one day take a stand, protect and fight for the very ones whom they have exploited. My hope is that we all find restoration and healing. I believe that with God all things are possible.
From this point on, I will continue to stand for justice, I will continue to seek reconciliation in all my relationships and I will continue to speak truth and give glory to God, according to my faith in all settings, whether it be in future media or future speaking engagements. I will be giving public apologies, asking for forgiveness and seeking reconciliation. Please accept my humble apologies and I would hope to personally apologize to each and every one of you and the other women that have been hurt by me. Once again, I am so sorry.
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Sincerely and For God’s glory,
Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.”